The other day I was looking through my news feed on Facebook and I started getting frustrated. I felt like I was watching the Highlight Reel of everyone’s BEST DAY in their life. I kept thinking there is no way that all of these people really woke up that happy. The aggravation probably arose because I had dealt with 2 major fits from my 3 year old and a to do list that even a superhero couldn’t tackle, all before 9 am. I sat there with the cursor moving waiting to make my first facebook status of the day. I wanted to tell everyone how clean my house was and how well my boys got along with each other but the reality was my house was a disaster, I hadn’t showered in 2 days, and World War 3 was about to break out over legos!
No one truly knew what was going on in my four walls or in my heart. I was dealing with anxiety this particular day and wanted to keep it hidden, exposing it would cause so much hurt. Lets just be real, I didn’t want anyone to know I was drowning in fear and doubting my ability as a mother, wife, and business owner. I preferred the highlight reel to be plastered for the public to see. God gently nudged me when I looked over and looked at my Bible. I often open up the Bible and see where my finger lands to find what God is trying to tell me. This is the verse HE led me to.
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
The word “rest” pierced my heart and I could feel tears sting my eyes. I craved Peace from anxiety and I knew that would only come if I would just rest IN HIS WORD. I chose to be transparent that day on face book. I wrote about my anxiety and fears and although I knew I would be judged and possibly made fun of, I also knew GOD was getting GLORY because it’s only by HIM that I find my REST. I am weak because HE is strong.
That day I felt a sense of freedom because I chose weakness over perfection and clung to HIS GRACE.
As women it’s time to rise up together and find Peace and Rest in the one who beautifully designed our days. As I sit here and write this with my glasses on, ponytail, and dirty dishes in the sink I am reminded of what truly is important and that is my heart. I will go to bed knowing I am flawed but I have a GOD who is ALIVE and STRONG and HE is all I need.