Growing up I played basketball and realized pretty quickly that I am competitive. I also found that I LOVE a good challenge. I am more motivated by someone challenging me and even taunting me that I can’t do something then anything.
Today I have a new challenge! Over the last 8 years I have dealt with anxiety and fears in my life. There have been times I wouldn’t try anything new because of the fear of failure and even the fear of success. I have dealt with negativity but the main source of it came from my own mind. There are mornings I wake up and the second my feet hit the floor I start doubting myself, insecurity seeps in my heart like poison. There are times I don’t even want to leave the house because of how I feel about myself.
Three days ago when my eyes opened the only thing I saw in front of me was DOUBT. When the doubt crept in it was like a downward spiral all day. My clothes didn’t fit right, my run that day was awful, and I didn’t feel capable of handling my work from home business. The things that popped in my head that described ME that day shook me to the CORE! Then it hit me, FEAR HATES COMMUNITY. I wrote down what I thought about myself on a chalkboard and put it around my neck. My husband just looked at me CRAZY, he asked if that was what I really thought about myself. My answer was YES and I told him to take my picture.
I am tired of fighting with my negative thoughts, I need a community of women to rally with me to FIGHT OFF FEAR, it’s time to put on boxing gloves! What if everyday we had our chalkboard next to us and we were forced to write what we thought about ourselves and wear it around for the world to see? Would you feel ashamed or confident? I am determined to see myself the way GOD created me and not how I “feel” or think. But I need YOU, I need accountability! I need a community of women to RISE UP and FIGHT off those negative thoughts so we can leave room for the ONE who beautifully designed us!
I will cling to this verse and be reminded that God is with me! If you are with me then copy and paste this link to your face book and (hash tag) #BeautifullyDesigned. We can come together as women and stop posting our “highlight reel” and start rising up to overcome things that oppress us from our destiny!
“For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
God beautifully designed us for a future and a hope and we will not let doubt, insecurities, and fear determine our future. We will overcome TOGETHER!